No entry yesterday and this one is just going to suck - I have half an hour to kill before I can think about leaving the office without experiencing a potentially fatal bout of road rage.

I have a tentative date in a couple of weeks to spend an evening or three in the company of a young lady that I've been chatting with for a while. This is particularly notable because our as-yet-mostly-unformed plans mostly revolve around getting fucked up to some extent on some sort of (most likely illegal) chemical substance. Of course, being me, I have a notion that once we get into a chemically altered state, we'll spend the rest of the evening screwing like minks, but really the main idea is that we're going to get high.

I never did any drugs until after I graduated from college (I didn't even drink in high school). Then I spent a couple of years in grad school and the group I hung out with contained some major potheads, so I smoked a bit for a year or two there. That's pretty much it - I've had a couple of hits of Mary Jane here and there since then, but I haven't gotten really stoned in probably seven or eight years.

But for some reason, I have a real desire to get completely fucked up, just for a night or two. Pot, sure - no big deal. But I want to experiment with other shit too, the stuff you hear about people doing but I've never tried. The young lady has some Xanax she wants me to try. I have some oxycodone around the house, and I'm curious to see what it's like to snort that stuff (though I'm still trying to figure out what's the difference between oxycodone and oxyxcontin, and would this shit kill me or something?). I'd love to try X, but no idea where I'd get some (it's been a looooong time since I've known any drug dealers). Heroin or cocaine, no thanks. That stuff scares me.

I dunno where I'm going with this, nor really where it's coming from. I do remember having sex while I was on a marijuana high - the orgasms were un-fucking-believable. Maybe it's just that I'd like to try that again. I've no intention of this being more than a once or twice thing, though. (I can do that - after smoking for a couple of years, I stopped cold turkey on a whim and that was it. I can even smoke a couple of cigarettes and not get hooked again. Apparently the only addiction I am susceptible to is pussy.)

Anyway, we'll see. That chances are fairly good that these tentative plans will fall through and nothing will come of it. But I really would like to just get completely fucked up one night on something besides alcohol.

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